Since having Trenton, I haven't been able to stop reeling at what motherhood means. Growing up, I knew my mother sacrificed her time and energy for us, but this first month of Trenton's life has given me a glimpse of the sacrifices I never really thought of.
A newborn needs so much love and attention, it's almost unbelievable. I think of all those times when my own mother must have rocked me to sleep and then gingerly placed me in the crib, holding her breath as she tiptoed out of the room--just like I do now with Trenton. I think of all those times she must have climbed into bed still holding her breath, relishing the silence but wondering if it would last--just like I do now. I think of all the times I must have started fussing in the crib after a few precious moments of quiet. I can imagine my mom thinking, "Please, just let her sleep for ten more minutes"--just like I do now.
I'm so grateful for my mother and for all the mothers out there who give everything for their children. It's not enough just to say thank you, but I guess the best way I can repay my mother is by doing it for my own children.
This is a beautiful post Eck--I got chills reading it. Wishing I could see you in action! XOXO.
ReplyDeleteTrenton is so adorable! And I love that picture of you and Ryan at the top. You are a beautiful couple!
ReplyDeleteYou are so sweet and I'm glad you are getting to experience motherhood. I can already tell you are such a great mom to Trenton!
ReplyDeleteI love this post! I was literally tearing up. This is exactly how I feel, and I marvel at the same things! Suddenly you have this whole new insight on who your own mother really is and how much she must love you.
ReplyDeleteHey Erica! I don't know if I've commented on your blog yet- this is Laura your RA from the good ol' BYU days. I loved this post! It is so true. I lived at home for the first two months of my little guy's life...it was hard not to say thank you every time I saw my mom. Tyler (my son) was a coliky baby too...so it made me appreciate a mother's patience even more!! Your little guy is adorable and you and your hubby are so lucky to be living in California. Hope you are doing well!
ReplyDeleteIt really is SO amazing how becoming a mother opens your eyes. My appreciation for Mom has increased tenfold with each new kid! We truly are SO lucky to have had so many generations pass on such incredible mothering skills. I'm excited for you. :)
ReplyDeleteOh, that really is so sweet. Someday maybe I'll be a mom and understand too!
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