I've had a lot of serious things on my mind lately. And let's be honest; that's not always the case. Often it's too easy to get caught up in, Which nap is this—Chase's third or fourth for the day? and, When in the world am I going to pick up those X-rays? Preferably without having to get both boys out of the car and load them back in 10 minutes later...
But lately, suddenly, I'm all fired up about becoming a better person.
I've been married for 4 1/2 years, and just like I'm not ashamed to admit that motherhood is hard, I'm also not ashamed to admit that marriage is hard. (It's probably because I'm just not the easiest person to be married to. :) So it's time for a marriage tune-up. Ryan and I are working on criticizing each other less and appreciating each other more.
Next up, I want to sponsor a child in Africa. I'm eager to do it, and Ryan is on board, but it's a big commitment to sponsor a child for years to come (even if it is only $25-35/month). Once I find the right organization to go through, I'll let you know.
For years I've been interested in foster care or foster care adoption. I'm not committing us by writing this, because it's too big of a decision to make without putting in a lot of research and thought—probably years' worth of thought, in fact. But the thought is always there.
I'm trying to look more for needs in other people. Sometimes I think that managing this complex has squelched that quality in me. Instead of looking for ways to help my neighbor, a lot of times I duck my head and just hope they don't ask me for anything! It's time for a change of heart...
I wish my brain were capable of doing more at once. There are so many things I want to change about myself, but I feel like my feeble human brain is always holding me back. Does anyone else feel like that?
And the very last thing I'm trying to do lately—see the forest for the trees. Life is good.